SOURCE: "다리에 칼 꽂는 느낌" 에프엑스 루나, 공황장애 고백…끝내 '오열' ('엄마를부탁해')
Luna made a broadcast appearance with her mother for the first time in a while and honestly opened up about the difficult time she went through because of panic disorder.
On the episode of MBC's 'Please Take Care of Mom' that aired on the 24th, Luna and her mother carefully shared personal stories they had never discussed publicly before.
On this day, Luna's mother prepared a seaweed soup seasoned with homemade soy sauce along with acorn jelly for her youngest daughter. After eating the food her mother had personally cooked, Luna swayed her body out of joy and said, "My stomach hasn't been well lately, I really craved for my mom's seaweed soup," and added, "When I was at my lowest point, my mom's seaweed soup helped me get through it." Her mother responded warmly, "We endured (the hard times) so well."
Luna confessed, "During promotions in my mid 20s, I started wondering, 'Is this panic disorder? Or is it depression?' Eventually, the panic disorder manifested as physical symptoms. I would feel pain on my legs, as if it were being constantly stabbed with knives."
Her mother recalled, "At the time, the only thing I had on my mind was to stay beside my daughter. But she didn't want that. She would tell me, 'Mom, can you please leave me alone for a while?' Even so, I didn't give up. I cried and begged her. But she doesn't seem to remember any of it now."
Luna eventually broke down crying and said, "I was suffering too, but I can't imagine how difficult it must have been for my parents." She continued, "Even during my trainee days, my parents never once showed they were struggling. I used to think, 'My mom never sleeps.' But it turned out that she developed bronchitis from working so hard, her hands would also swell really bad."
Luna explained, "The period when my mental health began collapsing coincided with the period when people I loved started passing away one after another. Around the same time, the project I took on required me to play a character who took her own life. After that, I was diagnosed with depression and panic disorder. I have since completed treatment and am now living healthily."
